I WAS MISERABLE, WICKNELL HURT ME

  Sonja says she was miserable in her marriage to Wicknell and she checked out long before they officially broke up. She confirmed the divor...

 Sonja says she was miserable in her marriage to Wicknell and she checked out long before they officially broke up. She confirmed the divorce has not been settled as Wicknell was dragging his feet. "Wicknell hurt me in the marriage that’s the truth. Its what’s he did in the marriage and how he did it. It wasn’t what he did only it was what he did  and how he did it. I’m not pro divorce. I am such a sucker for love. I’m such a sucker for relationships. I’m that girl. But, unfortunately, you do have to ask yourself in the marriage, what are you married to. What are we doing here and if its not marriage anymore, its not marriage anymore, that’s how I see it."

Its been long because there are things me and this ex need to finalise. So it has been long but, overally, what people need to remember is that people break up before they break up. In the marriage, I had already started to mentally prepare myself for this. There are other things that he has done post break up that are shocking. But there isn’t anything that he is doing now that he didn’t do when we were married. It’s the same guy. What that does is that it makes you happy that you made the choice because the person you said No to is the same person.

I will never regret the decision, a 100 percent and also people need to know I left before I left and I have been gone. In April it will be a year, there have been no scandals, no issues of me chasing after this person or trying to make noise. I didn’t go o line and feel the eed to and write some long soliloque about why the marriage broke up. I said I was leaving and I shut up. I left for myself. I chose peace by now I would have been fat, I would have been on antidepressants, probably anxiety pills, and all types of things. But I just said I need to be strong for my kids.

A lot of people say you would rather cry in a private jet or Bentley. I’m just like low key,why do we have to cry. Why does crying have to be part of the equation. Why cant we love each other, respect each other, why cant we be friends. Why can’t we plan a life together. As long as crying is in the equation, I don’t want it. I don’t want to cry wherever we are, lets be happy and lets be respectful.

I had a good cry yesterday. I was irritated. Nine months to a year I would have thought we have finished off a lot of things by now. But I guess he has got plans for me.